Life changes
Time certainly flies like nobody’s business because three years ago when I was 20 years old, I bumped into this very weird girl that actually changed me quite a lot for reasons that I myself do not know why. I remember doing weird stuff during days and nights for one simple reason and yet it wasn’t fruitful at all.
Despite the outcome, I am still happy because the time is well spent. However, as time passes by, I did shits that isn’t very good to begin with and that totally screws me up. I thought I was just fooling around when it just started but then it became more than just that as I get to know her better and things aren’t really going my way. I remember asking my twin Michelle for advice in the middle of the night after I screwed up which is not very effective after all. She somehow got back into my life again suddenly but things are no longer the same as it is before. It went from bad to worse as we both live in different worlds now, literally.
Girls tend to look for stability and etc but yet guys are always playing and never serious. And I, myself is not a very serious kinda person as everyone I know never takes me seriously even though I tried very hard to be serious. I actually tried to change the attitude for her but I guess it is too late now.
The three years I spent thinking and doing things I never expected I would opened up my world and I can now see further with experiences gained in the process. However, being a typical cancerian, sometimes I find it hard to let pieces of my memory to just slip away like the wind.
Now I wonder if I am going back to my old self despite the promise I made to her and myself.
