What is love?
I am not so sure about the rest of the world but I find it hard to define Love as in what the word represents. Everything around us as in movies, novels, and even real life scenarios portray love as something which is hard to get, most people would end up being heart broken. And the outcome of love is usually marriage if the love process is successful, and in most marriage, the reason of it lasting so long is the responsibility which is usually the children. just look at the divorce cases lately, I bet that lawyers who handle such cases are driving Mercedes and BMWs.
Reason of me posting this is that sometimes I find myself being cold blooded or emotionless towards such feelings most of the time except for a few very special cases. Despite having felt that I fell in love, I felt that something is lacking some where and I do not know what is that actually. Seeing how lovey dovey my friends could be, it made me wonder that if love that powerful? but some other friends are actually not having those lovey dovey thingy but rather logical relationship, so is that called love? Besides that, some were actually having disasturous relationship but still they do not regret being in them. It amazes me of the amount of definition that love has.
When people step into life, there are some process and one of them is called love but some sorta treated it like a game or so. A friend broke off recently and suddenly got with another individual in like a blink of eye, I do not know if that is what they called love. I mean that if it was meant for a good soul sharing moment, wouldn’t you want it to last? Another friend who broke off recently, lamented that his girl does not like his hobby, but his hobby is actually very healthy and she does not seems to like it. If love is that powerful, then people in love should accept each other for who they are isn’t it?
I think I am a person who is in need of a lot of freedom regardless of whether in a relationship or not, I need a lot of space for myself and I like to do things in my own discreet which I think is not very healthy in a relationship. I am not sure if I am too rational or something, I just cant seems to find that moment or feeling that will lift me up in the sky and put me on cloud nine. Things have been rather complicated with people around me regardless of in the campus or off the campus. I have different groups of friends who have different kind of culture, being part of them makes me confused of what I want to do and what do I have in mind.
This came up out of no where after a session where I saw a friend suffered so much about his relationship but I do not know of any way to make him happy not that I do not care but I believe that the reason of him asking us out is to let us know that he will be fine and he needs our support at that moment. not being cold blooded or what but i felt that he could do well on his own all we can do is to support his every decision. At times I felt helpless on issues alike but I usually kept it for myself except for once where I actually asked TEH BITCH on what should I do just because I really liked that person very much, I do not know how much do I like her but I am pretty sure that I like her.
Complication is the trend now I guess, the more complicated it is, the better it is.
I guess I will be writing about reincarnation next, don’t ask me why, I don’t know what got into me lately.
Cheers
A world without colours?
Not that I want to be colour blind but it is more about the racial thing, Malaysia is a land where cultures collide in a friendly way, this issue came up in my mind out of a sudden when I was at the hospital late last year, it seems to me that the hospital is the only place where every one is colour blind, people of different races talked to each other, concerning over the sickness of the people around them. It suddenly makes me think that we are actually not racist, the only problem is that every one is talking, the nurses had to come over and shut every one up.
Each and everyone of us are of the same body structure consisting the same amount of bones, and internal organs, and the only thing that set us apart is skin colour and culture. Among the same race, people have different culture too, no? so why do we have to be racist anyway? In the end, we are all going to be have our parts biodegrade into part of the nature, it seriously makes no difference between us.
I was browsing Youtube for meaningful commercials earlier and bumped into one of the Petronas CNY, Raya, Deepavali TVC and my childhood memories revived, I went to a kindergarten when I was 2, it was Good Hope Kindergarten, it is also a church and yet I see people of all races attending class or should I say playing. I did not know how to speak Malay nor did they know how to speak Mandarin, we used body language! I missed the moment back then and I wonder if my children would feel the same in the future.
Unity is the key for everyone living in a multiracial community but how many can actually do it? I am not sure why is it possible when we were young and not possible as we grew older? I had good Malay and Indian friends, in fact, we are very close and we could just talk about anything, therefore, I believe that racial differences is not a problem if only we take some time to know each other better.
Because we are not water and oil, we are all water colours, it only make things wonderful when all the colours are being mixed together, simple yet complicated, it depends on how we look at it. It suddenly seems to me that Art is the only key to unity now because every single colour is a different individual but when they are all on a plain white piece of canvas, every colour compliment each other.
Taken from www.soulcolour.com
My new love
She is Catherine, My C902 
A family friend brought it to me at an affordable price and I was attracted by its ability.
Camera works very well due to the fact that its a Cybershot phone, pictures can be edited even when its still in the phone. Sweet but it became my team’s toy almost immediately with their pictures busting my phone memory. The camera settings are even better, the side panels are actually touch screen, a gentle tap and the setting window will appear and you can do whatever you want. *grin*
Mich and Tiong
Music played on the phone were on par with those walkman phone I have encountered so far, wonderful sound quality that I need them badly every night before I sleep, played Roisin Murphy on Catherine over and over again.
User interface is quite user friendly as well but I suffered minor lags from it, well, nothing is perfect but this is one phone that is worth buying.
The design is nice too, the colour is classy black but I am not a gentle user anyway, my previous phone, K700i was suffering from bruises all over, sorry Kathy, Catherine is much nicer now.
Took me three damn years to get a new phone, managed to do so before I graduated.
Cheerios!
Taken from http://ucabales.com
Cool eh? its sweet!
I’m in love
Well, I am proud to say that I am in love, words are able to describe how much I love her because it is so simple.
Basically, I love the way she speaks, definitely sexy but still lovely, the best part is that she only speak when I want her to and she is definitely the voice I want to hear regardless of what mood I am in.
Then, it is the way she looks, stylish but still adorable, simply classy but she does have some edgy sides which I think I am able to cope with it.
She is very simple minded too, less complication for me which is something I truly like about her, she became a part of me so quickly, I couldn’t imagine my life without her, and yea, so soon.
She was there suddenly and became a part of me just a week or so ago, a friend brought her to me and it has been a wonderful experience so far and my friends enjoyed her presence, which is a bonus too.
Her identity will be revealed soon. hurhurhur
Title #367
I could not think of a title for this post, which explains Title #367 where it hit my head randomly. It has been awhile since both my blogs, Wonka and Sinner were left unattended ever since the rush for assignments and thoughts that ran through my mind lately.
Went to MATTA fair with my mates and it was not a pleasant experience with agencies kept pushing for a full tour but all that we want is just a free and easy tour for us to chill our heads off after three damned years at UTAR. All that I ever wanted is to leave this place and start earning money to cure my shopper inner self, hopefully thing turns out well for me in a few months time.
Rather than feeling upset, I was relieved, never had so much pressure on me before and my friends know it too. I was known as the not so serious one and I look funnier when I try to be serious, I know its damn sad, at times, I wanted to be taken seriously since I will be graduating soon, but at times, I don’t think being serious is a good thing for me too, its not my cup of kopi-o I think.
Got addicted to kopi lately and I think its the gene, Hainanese were known to be coffee shop owners and they are people who loves coffee. Grandad used to own a coffee shop back in Teluk Intan and I don’t seems to remember anything about it, he was dead before I was born but I remember visiting the place when I was still a toddler, dad also brought me to this coffee factory where he used to work, the wonderful aroma of coffee filled my nostrils with pleasure being felt in my head. I love coffee.. so suddenly.
Also addicted to Heroes lately, finished season one and I was hooked and started talking about the series in class, thanks to Issac for actually giving me some info on the series too, as I was pretty much multi tasking as I was doing my assignment at the same time too.
FYP is going fine now, the new supervisor is a nice lady who actually put in effort rather than the previous one who left without giving any notice to us, not so sure about her advertising supervisees but none of us knew about it.
This is more of an update as of late.
I am feeling free and managed to catch a few breather before heading on the some assignments in the coming weeks.
I hope she is doing well too.
Period.
Being complicated. As usual
After writing a happy ending for the story between Dominic and Clara, I didn’t feel any better despite the good ending, which is out of the norm from my usual style, I strongly believes in emotional ending because they are more likely to leave a mark in people’s life.
Take me for an example, I am pretty much a saddist actually, I have the tendency to do something that I will regret later on regardless of time frames, for one reason, which is to remember it in some corner in my heart, I have a heart which is not on par with my size, relatively small and fragile. *laughs*
At times, I don’t know what am I thinking also, I have been thinking way too much till it is actually going out of my control already. Some friends told me not to think so much but just go ahead with it but I still find it hard for me to do so because I think too much, thinking of the impossibles, thinking too far away from where I am, then I will end up regretting some time later.
Suddenly I like writing stories.
All the time, I am being random.
Great movie and Great company
When it comes to comedy, one wont go wrong with Jim Carrey, Adam Sandler and Rob Schneider, and best if your pick is Adam Sandler or Rob Schneider because they come in a package. The movie I watched with a wonderful person is Adam Sandler’s Bedtime Stories directed by Adam Shankman.
The movie is more of a family comedy as it involves family values with wonderful touch of humor, the movie moves around Skeeter when he was taking care of his sister’s kids while she is away for an interview. Every night, Skeeter would tell the kids a story before they went to sleep, creative as the kids may be, they add in their sides of the story, and surprisingly the stories came through and Skeeter plans to exploit it.
Its raining Gum balls
Skeeter realized that stories will only come true only if the kids said it, however, he realized it the hard way when he wants the Red Ferrari for FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, and this is when Rob Schneider came in and took his wallet.
But the movie trip wasnt all about the movie, it was mainly about the person who spent time with me watching it despite of the indian couple sitting next to us who were talking all the way. It was a pleasant experience and I havent watched a movie for ages. I wonder when will be the next one. hmm
Dannie has a new target!
Yea yea, not what you’d expected but its what I have always wanted, a new phone and I laid my eyes on this particular SE G900 which is what I am looking for interms of features, price, and design.
Design – The G900 has the classic SE phone design, for the features this baby has, the size and design is pretty slim and classy compared to those thick Nokia phones out there. However, SE sacrificed some hardware to make up to the design advantage.
Hardware – The specs are pretty good despite the slim design but there are a few downsides to it as it is only 208Mhz which means laggy-ness, but this package comes with WiFi, GPS, 3G, and etc. so basically good stuff for a non harcore user like me. And good lord, its a touch screen phone, meaning that I can play play around when I am bored!
Software - Read a few reviews on the web and checked out some discussion at lowyat.net and I find that the phone is quite a disappointment within the hardcore users because the G900 uses Symbian UIQ OS which is quite dead at the moment and most users said that it kinda sucked for them.
Camera – It is a 5mega pixel camera but I am not pleased after reading countless reviews on the camera as some claims that a K750i pictures is better than the G900, but there’s Auto Focus, Flash [not Xenon Flash 
], Image Stabilizer and etc. Which in the end makes it a decent buy at its price.
Notes Feature – This is the pwn-ing feature for me, notes written can be written using handwriting, users are spoilt with up to 3 choices of colours for the notes they made and alarms can be set for the notes! I am in need of this feature man. haha
Taken from www.gsmarena.com
Kinda hot isn’t it? Should I get it or Should I not? hmm
The Trip and some self discovery
Back from Penang and Ipoh now, had a good time over there with good company, which is Koku, Michelle, Joyce, and Irene. We head to penang on the very next day of our Campaign planning paper and set our feet on the island with an empty stomach and the urge to shop, although the guys didnt really shopped but the girls did get the most out of it without much effort, I begin to wonder how they do it, details of the trip will be in Michelle’s and Joyce’s blog very soon. I am friggin lazy! haha
The beach view of batu Ferringhi
The picture taken above is from the famous Batu Ferringhi which is around 30minutes from town, pretty decent place to chill but nothing beats the beach at Pulau Perhentian. It took me a while to figure out something while gazing into the view of the beach from where I stood, decided to take a few pictures and find myself liking this most after browsing through. I guess I am not very sure of what I really want, Eunice is right, most probably.
Christmas Deco at Queensbay Mall
Apart from the doraemon theme at Queensbay Mall, Penang, I like this quite alot too, for the reason of things dangling of tiny little chain look-alikes and its kinda nice if you look at it after some time.
At times, I really need a reset button…
你不是真正的快乐。。是吗？
作詞：五月天 作曲：五月天
人 群中 哭著
你隻想變成透明的顏色
你再也不會夢 或痛 或心動了
你已經決定了 你已經決定了
你 靜靜 忍著
緊緊把昨天在拳心握著
而回憶越是甜 就是 越傷人了
越是在 手心留下 密密麻麻 深深淺淺 的刀割
你不是真正的快樂 你的笑隻是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
這 世界 笑了
於是你合群的一起笑了
當生存是規則 不是 你的選擇
於是你 含著眼淚 飄飄蕩蕩 跌跌撞撞 的走著
你不是真正的快樂 你的笑隻是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了 然后才后悔著
你不是真正的快樂 你的笑隻是你穿的保護色
你決定不恨了 也決定不愛了
把你的靈魂關在永遠鎖上的軀殼
你不是真正的快樂 你的傷從不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左側 卻像隔著銀河
難道就真的抱著遺憾一直到老了
你值得真正的快樂 你應該脫下你穿的保護色
為什麼失去了 還要被懲罰呢
能不能就讓 悲傷全部 結束在此刻 重新開始活著
[taken from http://asukaworld.blogspot.com/2008/10/mv-lyrics.html]
The song above is dedicated to someone I know, but there is just that much of things that I can do. Too many things happen in the process of growing up for me, and there’s nothing much I can do about it. But the song is nice and I think its not just for you, but maybe for me as well? life’s the way it is, don’t you wish there’s a reset button where you can start all over again?
