What is love?
I am not so sure about the rest of the world but I find it hard to define Love as in what the word represents. Everything around us as in movies, novels, and even real life scenarios portray love as something which is hard to get, most people would end up being heart broken. And the outcome of love is usually marriage if the love process is successful, and in most marriage, the reason of it lasting so long is the responsibility which is usually the children. just look at the divorce cases lately, I bet that lawyers who handle such cases are driving Mercedes and BMWs.
Reason of me posting this is that sometimes I find myself being cold blooded or emotionless towards such feelings most of the time except for a few very special cases. Despite having felt that I fell in love, I felt that something is lacking some where and I do not know what is that actually. Seeing how lovey dovey my friends could be, it made me wonder that if love that powerful? but some other friends are actually not having those lovey dovey thingy but rather logical relationship, so is that called love? Besides that, some were actually having disasturous relationship but still they do not regret being in them. It amazes me of the amount of definition that love has.
When people step into life, there are some process and one of them is called love but some sorta treated it like a game or so. A friend broke off recently and suddenly got with another individual in like a blink of eye, I do not know if that is what they called love. I mean that if it was meant for a good soul sharing moment, wouldn’t you want it to last? Another friend who broke off recently, lamented that his girl does not like his hobby, but his hobby is actually very healthy and she does not seems to like it. If love is that powerful, then people in love should accept each other for who they are isn’t it?
I think I am a person who is in need of a lot of freedom regardless of whether in a relationship or not, I need a lot of space for myself and I like to do things in my own discreet which I think is not very healthy in a relationship. I am not sure if I am too rational or something, I just cant seems to find that moment or feeling that will lift me up in the sky and put me on cloud nine. Things have been rather complicated with people around me regardless of in the campus or off the campus. I have different groups of friends who have different kind of culture, being part of them makes me confused of what I want to do and what do I have in mind.
This came up out of no where after a session where I saw a friend suffered so much about his relationship but I do not know of any way to make him happy not that I do not care but I believe that the reason of him asking us out is to let us know that he will be fine and he needs our support at that moment. not being cold blooded or what but i felt that he could do well on his own all we can do is to support his every decision. At times I felt helpless on issues alike but I usually kept it for myself except for once where I actually asked TEH BITCH on what should I do just because I really liked that person very much, I do not know how much do I like her but I am pretty sure that I like her.
Complication is the trend now I guess, the more complicated it is, the better it is.
I guess I will be writing about reincarnation next, don’t ask me why, I don’t know what got into me lately.
Cheers
Lack of Attention?
After reading a few blogs on Mr. Kipas’ latest blog posts, it makes me wonder how crazy can this person go? Whenever he fails to get the attention he wanted, he give a shot at something to divert attention to him. He claims that he understands the philosophy of education and life, but look at his sad state of life? Walking in and out of the lecture hall ALONE and sitting at the last row of tables ALONE. It all explains one thing, he is beyond our state of enlightenment.
I have to admit that he is so wise that he can make everyone worship him and then turn their back against him. Seriously, that is GOD like! Who on earth is capable of doing that in a short duration of time, say 3 years? Its not that I am bias towards his existence but it seems that he keeps stepping on our tails for no particular reason, he then will claim that we stepped on his first saying that we are naive and etc. I wonder how true can he be?
As more questions were asked, a respected lecturer of mine was being critically analyzed by him in his blog, he claims that she knows nothing about campaign, humility, and etc. He claims that she contradicts herself but look at him, who is he to say all these? She’s qualified to teach, and she did it well above the expectation. Look at him, the reason of him saying all these is because she did not acknowledge his point of view during a presentation where he ridiculed himself.
No offence to Chinese educated friends of mine, I, myself is chinese educated and I do blog in chinese as well but look at him, a chinese educated fellow but claims that he is so good that he dont need to study to pass for exams. I do blog in chinese as well, quite often infact, but this particular fellow who claims that he is millions of kilimetres above every single human being on earth in terms of knowledge and wisom, he had problem expressing his thoughts in English or any languages other than Chinese. If he is so knowledgeable or so, shouldn’t he be blogging in English since he is a PR undergraduate? I don’t know why but I guess he is losing his head.
What is wrong with him honestly?
Probably lack of attention?
You tell me..
A world without colours?
Not that I want to be colour blind but it is more about the racial thing, Malaysia is a land where cultures collide in a friendly way, this issue came up in my mind out of a sudden when I was at the hospital late last year, it seems to me that the hospital is the only place where every one is colour blind, people of different races talked to each other, concerning over the sickness of the people around them. It suddenly makes me think that we are actually not racist, the only problem is that every one is talking, the nurses had to come over and shut every one up.
Each and everyone of us are of the same body structure consisting the same amount of bones, and internal organs, and the only thing that set us apart is skin colour and culture. Among the same race, people have different culture too, no? so why do we have to be racist anyway? In the end, we are all going to be have our parts biodegrade into part of the nature, it seriously makes no difference between us.
I was browsing Youtube for meaningful commercials earlier and bumped into one of the Petronas CNY, Raya, Deepavali TVC and my childhood memories revived, I went to a kindergarten when I was 2, it was Good Hope Kindergarten, it is also a church and yet I see people of all races attending class or should I say playing. I did not know how to speak Malay nor did they know how to speak Mandarin, we used body language! I missed the moment back then and I wonder if my children would feel the same in the future.
Unity is the key for everyone living in a multiracial community but how many can actually do it? I am not sure why is it possible when we were young and not possible as we grew older? I had good Malay and Indian friends, in fact, we are very close and we could just talk about anything, therefore, I believe that racial differences is not a problem if only we take some time to know each other better.
Because we are not water and oil, we are all water colours, it only make things wonderful when all the colours are being mixed together, simple yet complicated, it depends on how we look at it. It suddenly seems to me that Art is the only key to unity now because every single colour is a different individual but when they are all on a plain white piece of canvas, every colour compliment each other.
Taken from www.soulcolour.com
Swirling by the cloud
Taken with my C902
Took this awhile ago with Catherine and did some post process on photoshop earlier, from the looks of it.. it is kinda emo but the weather was good for the past few days to get those blue sky, If my memory did not fail me, I took it while driving, there is no print screen button around.
My new love
She is Catherine, My C902 
A family friend brought it to me at an affordable price and I was attracted by its ability.
Camera works very well due to the fact that its a Cybershot phone, pictures can be edited even when its still in the phone. Sweet but it became my team’s toy almost immediately with their pictures busting my phone memory. The camera settings are even better, the side panels are actually touch screen, a gentle tap and the setting window will appear and you can do whatever you want. *grin*
Mich and Tiong
Music played on the phone were on par with those walkman phone I have encountered so far, wonderful sound quality that I need them badly every night before I sleep, played Roisin Murphy on Catherine over and over again.
User interface is quite user friendly as well but I suffered minor lags from it, well, nothing is perfect but this is one phone that is worth buying.
The design is nice too, the colour is classy black but I am not a gentle user anyway, my previous phone, K700i was suffering from bruises all over, sorry Kathy, Catherine is much nicer now.
Took me three damn years to get a new phone, managed to do so before I graduated.
Cheerios!
Taken from http://ucabales.com
Cool eh? its sweet!
I’m in love
Well, I am proud to say that I am in love, words are able to describe how much I love her because it is so simple.
Basically, I love the way she speaks, definitely sexy but still lovely, the best part is that she only speak when I want her to and she is definitely the voice I want to hear regardless of what mood I am in.
Then, it is the way she looks, stylish but still adorable, simply classy but she does have some edgy sides which I think I am able to cope with it.
She is very simple minded too, less complication for me which is something I truly like about her, she became a part of me so quickly, I couldn’t imagine my life without her, and yea, so soon.
She was there suddenly and became a part of me just a week or so ago, a friend brought her to me and it has been a wonderful experience so far and my friends enjoyed her presence, which is a bonus too.
Her identity will be revealed soon. hurhurhur
Title #367
I could not think of a title for this post, which explains Title #367 where it hit my head randomly. It has been awhile since both my blogs, Wonka and Sinner were left unattended ever since the rush for assignments and thoughts that ran through my mind lately.
Went to MATTA fair with my mates and it was not a pleasant experience with agencies kept pushing for a full tour but all that we want is just a free and easy tour for us to chill our heads off after three damned years at UTAR. All that I ever wanted is to leave this place and start earning money to cure my shopper inner self, hopefully thing turns out well for me in a few months time.
Rather than feeling upset, I was relieved, never had so much pressure on me before and my friends know it too. I was known as the not so serious one and I look funnier when I try to be serious, I know its damn sad, at times, I wanted to be taken seriously since I will be graduating soon, but at times, I don’t think being serious is a good thing for me too, its not my cup of kopi-o I think.
Got addicted to kopi lately and I think its the gene, Hainanese were known to be coffee shop owners and they are people who loves coffee. Grandad used to own a coffee shop back in Teluk Intan and I don’t seems to remember anything about it, he was dead before I was born but I remember visiting the place when I was still a toddler, dad also brought me to this coffee factory where he used to work, the wonderful aroma of coffee filled my nostrils with pleasure being felt in my head. I love coffee.. so suddenly.
Also addicted to Heroes lately, finished season one and I was hooked and started talking about the series in class, thanks to Issac for actually giving me some info on the series too, as I was pretty much multi tasking as I was doing my assignment at the same time too.
FYP is going fine now, the new supervisor is a nice lady who actually put in effort rather than the previous one who left without giving any notice to us, not so sure about her advertising supervisees but none of us knew about it.
This is more of an update as of late.
I am feeling free and managed to catch a few breather before heading on the some assignments in the coming weeks.
I hope she is doing well too.
Period.
Being complicated. As usual
After writing a happy ending for the story between Dominic and Clara, I didn’t feel any better despite the good ending, which is out of the norm from my usual style, I strongly believes in emotional ending because they are more likely to leave a mark in people’s life.
Take me for an example, I am pretty much a saddist actually, I have the tendency to do something that I will regret later on regardless of time frames, for one reason, which is to remember it in some corner in my heart, I have a heart which is not on par with my size, relatively small and fragile. *laughs*
At times, I don’t know what am I thinking also, I have been thinking way too much till it is actually going out of my control already. Some friends told me not to think so much but just go ahead with it but I still find it hard for me to do so because I think too much, thinking of the impossibles, thinking too far away from where I am, then I will end up regretting some time later.
Suddenly I like writing stories.
All the time, I am being random.
Lighthouse needed
I woke up at 9am to attend a overview of an workshop this morning, its by 95% Advertising Academy and they really know what they are doing, spent like 2 hours on listening, discussing and self discovery but the 3 months course cost RM5.500 and it actually inspired me on stuff that I’ve overlooked in the past. Also got to have a little talk with Bee Nee, who is the Winner for Best of the Best Student Award at “Change the game” Kancils Award 2008 and she said that her experience in 95% is pleasant and very interesting compared to what she heard from people who are doing it at local institutes. Looking forward to the course but money factor comes in.
Received a sms from someone on something that I have been dragging on for weeks, reason being that I am lost of what I really want or something like that, mainly confused and there’s this thing called fear lurking within me causing anxiety.
Glad to have very encouraging friends but it made me see more of my flaws and seeing myself as unworthy of what that could happen.
Basically, lost and dont know what to do.
Great movie and Great company
When it comes to comedy, one wont go wrong with Jim Carrey, Adam Sandler and Rob Schneider, and best if your pick is Adam Sandler or Rob Schneider because they come in a package. The movie I watched with a wonderful person is Adam Sandler’s Bedtime Stories directed by Adam Shankman.
The movie is more of a family comedy as it involves family values with wonderful touch of humor, the movie moves around Skeeter when he was taking care of his sister’s kids while she is away for an interview. Every night, Skeeter would tell the kids a story before they went to sleep, creative as the kids may be, they add in their sides of the story, and surprisingly the stories came through and Skeeter plans to exploit it.
Its raining Gum balls
Skeeter realized that stories will only come true only if the kids said it, however, he realized it the hard way when he wants the Red Ferrari for FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, and this is when Rob Schneider came in and took his wallet.
But the movie trip wasnt all about the movie, it was mainly about the person who spent time with me watching it despite of the indian couple sitting next to us who were talking all the way. It was a pleasant experience and I havent watched a movie for ages. I wonder when will be the next one. hmm
