Being complicated. As usual
After writing a happy ending for the story between Dominic and Clara, I didn’t feel any better despite the good ending, which is out of the norm from my usual style, I strongly believes in emotional ending because they are more likely to leave a mark in people’s life.
Take me for an example, I am pretty much a saddist actually, I have the tendency to do something that I will regret later on regardless of time frames, for one reason, which is to remember it in some corner in my heart, I have a heart which is not on par with my size, relatively small and fragile. *laughs*
At times, I don’t know what am I thinking also, I have been thinking way too much till it is actually going out of my control already. Some friends told me not to think so much but just go ahead with it but I still find it hard for me to do so because I think too much, thinking of the impossibles, thinking too far away from where I am, then I will end up regretting some time later.
Suddenly I like writing stories.
All the time, I am being random.
Lighthouse needed
I woke up at 9am to attend a overview of an workshop this morning, its by 95% Advertising Academy and they really know what they are doing, spent like 2 hours on listening, discussing and self discovery but the 3 months course cost RM5.500 and it actually inspired me on stuff that I’ve overlooked in the past. Also got to have a little talk with Bee Nee, who is the Winner for Best of the Best Student Award at “Change the game” Kancils Award 2008 and she said that her experience in 95% is pleasant and very interesting compared to what she heard from people who are doing it at local institutes. Looking forward to the course but money factor comes in.
Received a sms from someone on something that I have been dragging on for weeks, reason being that I am lost of what I really want or something like that, mainly confused and there’s this thing called fear lurking within me causing anxiety.
Glad to have very encouraging friends but it made me see more of my flaws and seeing myself as unworthy of what that could happen.
Basically, lost and dont know what to do.
Unintended Sinner 