I wanna be a beach bum
It has been nearly a year since my last island trip which is the one with Vjean, Bryant Tong, and etc. The trip was fun and I miss the white sandy beach and the clear blue ocean. It seems like I need to go on an island trip at least once a year just to make myself darker. I find it hard to get tanned ad even if I do get tanned, it last no longer than a week.
A failed Bali trip was caused by the notorious A aka H1N1, not that I fear death but it was actually the location. If I want to die, I want to die at my home! hahaha Atleast I dont have to fly all the way there just to experience death.
Shall not talk about fail trips, I wish to go to Langkawi this year as there are pratically no more nice looking corals because when I was there 8 years ago, the corals are gray in colour which means they are dead. Just because there are no living and nice looking corals, I will get to have my dream tanning session with Heinekens in the coconut with an orange toothpick umbrella in it! This is what I call paradise!
*Dreams Absolute, Smirnoff, Bombay Sapphire, Heineken, Kilkenny, Tiger…….*
I rather die of overdose of Alcohol rather than H1N1, I beliebe Michelle will support me on this!
Tring a ling a ling
This post has got nothing to do with the title.
It has been awhile since I came here to write anything, it has been a rollercoaster ride since the end of finals. I went on a road trip on my own down south to Johor then to Singapore. The trip down south was awesome, imagine getting to walk around without anyone to scream at your ears just because they think that they are superior or some sort. The feeling is great, I had the best time there and even stayed out for nearly 24 hours and walking around Singapore.
Met a few friends over there and it was enlightening as some of them are really inspiring. But I like travelling alone, as in I get to enjoy ultimate freedom and head to wherever I like without having people to scream around like some underage kid and telling people that they are tall, ****, and handsome.
I regret that I am unable to head over to Bali as the graduation trip as Mom is concerned as the H1N1 case were not so under control back then and I rather not take the risk and have her nagging at me for the entire month or something.
Anyway, just a short update.
An eye opener
An improptu gathering I had with my primary schoolmates opened up my view towards life, it all happened when we started talking about what we did like 10 years ago. All of a sudden, memories gushing throught every single brain cells and I live 10 years old once again.
I compared things I thought of back then and compared it to now, I realized that I need to think differently now. To see things differently and to come out from my shell and forget what that happened. It seems like I have been living in my past all these years under the shadow of those who used to protect me during those days. Big portion of the credits will have to go to Ting Sen and Su Ee, they are the ones who are always there for me when I got bullied.
Looking back now, I feel like I need to be independent already, and I also realized my feelings for her had somehow subsided as I believe it to be. She became somewhat significant to me as things I do after the incident is an effort to forget but it ended up as a painful experience.
I grew up, in a blink of eye
Education, education, and education
Now that I finished my studies, I am beginning to think that what is it all about. For instance, some of the subjects learned in Form6 and Form1 to Form5, it seems like they are all bullshits. I am not using it today and not likely that I will use it unless I am teaching my kids. The accounts subject in Form4,5 and 6 is outdated by 20 to 30 years I think, nobody uses that format anymore other than the education ministry.
I think education serves as a purpose to limit our thinking capacity and make you follow rules set by some people up there. Why limit us when we need the galaxy to be the limits?
Love under the rule of the web
The web in the title is the world wide web, and the existence of the www has not only changed how people live and how people act but most importantly, the culture of living beings are all changed.
One of the easiest example would be love/relationships and the likes of it. Look at the generations before the www, love started with face to face conversations and mutual understanding were done in depth before even starting a relationship. However, as the internet emerged into the current millennium things have changed drastically.
Due to the existence of the internet, love has become a toy, people falling over each other with millions of miles between them, age does not seems to be a matter anymore, deeper understandings were no longer needed to start a relationship and etc. But then, the best part is that people can rely on someone on the net for a moment without having to fear of what their society would think of them. For example, if you were to have a grudge towards your family or your boss, it will be hard to share it among friends but it is easier if you have an online lover to share it with.
Therefore, love on the web makes sense this way when people wants to be discreet but yet they need a place or someone to voice out what they think and basically a new identity.
The friggin weather
I am not sure sure what is wrong with the weather but it is raining for like 15mins after a long day filled with intense love and care from the sun. Imagine the the heat rising from the ground after the small pour? It is totally unbearable.
Speaking of the rain, it came across my mind that people are like rain too. What are the characteristics linking people to rain? it is the unpredictability I guess, despite weather forecasts and the likes of it, the weather has always been out of the expectation of people. Just like people, you will never know what is going on their mind and predicting their next move is always hard.
And it is odd when people says the weather is complicated when the say it never rains or it never stop raining but they never take a look at themselves and think, are they like that too?
Take me for example, I am always like that, hard for people to predict what am I going to say or do. Even myself find it hard to predict what I am going to do or say later.
I am very random.
A waiting wish
I usually wish
That you could hold my hand not tight but firm so that I can never leave you
I usually wish
That I will always be in your mind maybe not always but most of the time so that I will the first person you think of
I really wish
That i know how u look like to be closer to u as you always seems to be a mystery to me
Make my wishes come true one day?
无题149
生命中的一切
因你而起，因你而终
闭上失明的眼
不看你笑，不看你哭
静静宁听四周
你的呐喊，我的悲哀
那个无知的人
似乎是你，似乎是我
无知的你或我
随风而去，随潮而退
What is love?
I am not so sure about the rest of the world but I find it hard to define Love as in what the word represents. Everything around us as in movies, novels, and even real life scenarios portray love as something which is hard to get, most people would end up being heart broken. And the outcome of love is usually marriage if the love process is successful, and in most marriage, the reason of it lasting so long is the responsibility which is usually the children. just look at the divorce cases lately, I bet that lawyers who handle such cases are driving Mercedes and BMWs.
Reason of me posting this is that sometimes I find myself being cold blooded or emotionless towards such feelings most of the time except for a few very special cases. Despite having felt that I fell in love, I felt that something is lacking some where and I do not know what is that actually. Seeing how lovey dovey my friends could be, it made me wonder that if love that powerful? but some other friends are actually not having those lovey dovey thingy but rather logical relationship, so is that called love? Besides that, some were actually having disasturous relationship but still they do not regret being in them. It amazes me of the amount of definition that love has.
When people step into life, there are some process and one of them is called love but some sorta treated it like a game or so. A friend broke off recently and suddenly got with another individual in like a blink of eye, I do not know if that is what they called love. I mean that if it was meant for a good soul sharing moment, wouldn’t you want it to last? Another friend who broke off recently, lamented that his girl does not like his hobby, but his hobby is actually very healthy and she does not seems to like it. If love is that powerful, then people in love should accept each other for who they are isn’t it?
I think I am a person who is in need of a lot of freedom regardless of whether in a relationship or not, I need a lot of space for myself and I like to do things in my own discreet which I think is not very healthy in a relationship. I am not sure if I am too rational or something, I just cant seems to find that moment or feeling that will lift me up in the sky and put me on cloud nine. Things have been rather complicated with people around me regardless of in the campus or off the campus. I have different groups of friends who have different kind of culture, being part of them makes me confused of what I want to do and what do I have in mind.
This came up out of no where after a session where I saw a friend suffered so much about his relationship but I do not know of any way to make him happy not that I do not care but I believe that the reason of him asking us out is to let us know that he will be fine and he needs our support at that moment. not being cold blooded or what but i felt that he could do well on his own all we can do is to support his every decision. At times I felt helpless on issues alike but I usually kept it for myself except for once where I actually asked TEH BITCH on what should I do just because I really liked that person very much, I do not know how much do I like her but I am pretty sure that I like her.
Complication is the trend now I guess, the more complicated it is, the better it is.
I guess I will be writing about reincarnation next, don’t ask me why, I don’t know what got into me lately.
Cheers
Lack of Attention?
After reading a few blogs on Mr. Kipas’ latest blog posts, it makes me wonder how crazy can this person go? Whenever he fails to get the attention he wanted, he give a shot at something to divert attention to him. He claims that he understands the philosophy of education and life, but look at his sad state of life? Walking in and out of the lecture hall ALONE and sitting at the last row of tables ALONE. It all explains one thing, he is beyond our state of enlightenment.
I have to admit that he is so wise that he can make everyone worship him and then turn their back against him. Seriously, that is GOD like! Who on earth is capable of doing that in a short duration of time, say 3 years? Its not that I am bias towards his existence but it seems that he keeps stepping on our tails for no particular reason, he then will claim that we stepped on his first saying that we are naive and etc. I wonder how true can he be?
As more questions were asked, a respected lecturer of mine was being critically analyzed by him in his blog, he claims that she knows nothing about campaign, humility, and etc. He claims that she contradicts herself but look at him, who is he to say all these? She’s qualified to teach, and she did it well above the expectation. Look at him, the reason of him saying all these is because she did not acknowledge his point of view during a presentation where he ridiculed himself.
No offence to Chinese educated friends of mine, I, myself is chinese educated and I do blog in chinese as well but look at him, a chinese educated fellow but claims that he is so good that he dont need to study to pass for exams. I do blog in chinese as well, quite often infact, but this particular fellow who claims that he is millions of kilimetres above every single human being on earth in terms of knowledge and wisom, he had problem expressing his thoughts in English or any languages other than Chinese. If he is so knowledgeable or so, shouldn’t he be blogging in English since he is a PR undergraduate? I don’t know why but I guess he is losing his head.
What is wrong with him honestly?
Probably lack of attention?
You tell me..
